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I'm only human after all. Yeah, I can be selfish, but so is everyone else sometimes. Everyone has a bad day, but it seems like I can't have a bad day ever. To you, it only seems like I'm sad, which I probably am, but you never considered that it might be because of you that I'm sad. That maybe you're the reason why I be feeling a little grouchy, or pissed. I beat myself up for even thinking this, I think to myself, how dare I complain, but I can't help but feel this way sometimes.

It seems like when I think I have something that I so truly, and desperately want so close, I can almost touch it, you snatch it away from me. It's like this neverending crawl to get what I want, perhaps what I deserve. Sometimes, I want to scream at the top of my lungs, to release all this emotion inside of me, but I don't. Because I'll be making a commotion for you. And all this time while I'm thinking this, I want to run away to a beach...

"After awhile, you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. You learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security. You begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises. You begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child. You learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans. After awhile, you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much. So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. You learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and that you really do have worth. You learn that with every goodbye, there's a hello." - Excerpt taken from Lizzie's blog

xoxo